Living with God

Moses was raised in Egyptian culture, immersed in a world that worshipped many gods. Polytheism was his fundamental teaching as a child, and the idea of one living God was foreign to him. When God spoke to Moses at the burning bush, it marked a profound turning point in his journey toward God. In that divine encounter, Moses awakened to monotheism not through tradition or belief, but through direct experience. 

The Pharaoh Akhenaten, ruling in the 14th century BCE, emerged from a long lineage steeped in Egypt’s deeply rooted polytheistic traditions. Yet, within him stirred a different light, a single devotion that recognized the Sun, Aten, as the one true God. Though his reign was brief, Akhenaten shifted the spiritual axis of an entire civilization, guiding Egypt into a rare moment of monotheism. His vision, radical for its time, carried the seed of a deeper knowing, an echo of the eternal, however fleeting.

We don’t build muscle with God because we live by religious ideologies or family traditions. Living with God is His creation for every Soul to know Him and is a walk that represents everything in life. We’re detaching from our idea of life for it. The human narrative wants to be right and claim everything it sees in its own knowing and not knowing, and loses in depth for ego to live.

Walking outside acceptance isn’t an easy walk, but it’s a mandatory one for the individual to know faith and trust. The Abraham test was one that could easily be seen as not God, but something deeper knew it was God. The journey is one every human being will walk one day. Learning to know God from nothing to Him. 

I never knew God existed.  Whenever someone mentioned His name, I would quietly replace it in my mind, whispering “the universe.” In truth, I was as far from God as anyone could be. There was no concept of Him, no framework in my mind for His existence, no opening for Him to enter. And yet, He walked with me to teach and bless.

If we understand Abraham, having descendants as numerous as the stars, we know God lives, making any human being know Him not by the mind but by the depth already stirring in the Soul. 

His breaking through a thought system, not knowing Him, speaks volumes about the deeper, untold journey taking place between humanity and God. It tells every religion and every seeker that God doesn’t require belief or tradition to know us. He moves beyond them. Even Buddha’s story dives into knowing more about life with God, than any pope has lived.

Buddha never knew God existed, but traveled His roads walking away from a newborn son, family, royalty, luxury, and power for a deeper calling in his Soul. He was losing his life to gain it in God without knowing God existed. While he never reached a place to know God existed, he did receive light in Christ for enlightenment. No one in any religion has carried enlightenment.

The lessons from God keep being missed out of fear of not knowing Him. We can’t summon God like a genie and want something tangible, which is the golden calf and ego, placing satan’s wish, not the Soul’s. 

God moves to a greater light in us, changing the individual out of ego and satan at a depth level at any particular time in human consciousness. 

Almost 16 years ago, with an organization monitoring me, my journey to know God began. They were destroying my life because I had worked with one of their most famous artists but did not want to be a part of their organization. My life went from Beverly Hills to below poverty. I thought about how to handle it, and it was either create a world-class lawsuit and live at their level fighting back, or choose Love. Marianne Williamson was a teacher of Love, and I had known her work by volunteering with her. Even though I wasn’t a student of ACIM, she carried knowing to love. 

The choice to live Love and not to attack back or defend myself was made. I didn’t want to live at their level of energy or carry hatred. That choice grew into what no one is ready to live, but is our destiny. 

We don’t always know what we’re doing, but life tends to carry more. I watched my life sink lower and lower, and I didn’t tell anyone that I had chosen Love and was being attacked by an organization known for harassing people. In New York, I once owned a gloss magazine and an advertising agency, and I created, hosted, and produced radio shows on both FM and AM.

I had friends who were millionaires who could have helped. And my brother was working for Homeland Security. If I had told anyone what was happening, they would have chosen to fight back for me.  No one loses their outer life because of people breaking the law and doing wrong. The outer world’s message was not the inner world’s.

While my life was not ordinary, it was at a Soul level, which tends to mean that what we believe life is falls away for a deeper understanding of life. 

To know the power of Love is always through a very real experience. I didn’t defend or attack back,and they continued to attack my life for four years, and eventually, I lived below the poverty line. For those around me, it didn’t make sense. It seemed like something was very wrong. But in a deeper sense, it was the opposite. What was on the outside was falling apart as something much deeper was shaping on the inside. I was losing my life to gain it in God without knowing He existed. 

The choice of love was reshaping my life and the journey of reality. 

I had moved around Los Angeles to keep a roof over my head and ended up in a storage apartment in Sherman Oaks. Soon after moving into the apartment, energy started flying out of the ceiling, walls, and the floor. I was videotaping around fifty videos a day. Then, a few months later, I began recording voices. I had lived for four years, having my life destroyed while only choosing Love. Many days, I would drive to the FBI, wanting to tell them about my life, but something deeper would call me to pause. 

Choosing something in the Soul doesn’t work for society’s ideas of life. It won’t permeate with success or status. It’s a lonelier walk out of the world to something else. The mind has to fall away as another light builds in our depth. 

Many times, I would sit on the side of the road contemplating what Love was and if this was right or wrong for what was happening in my life. The choice of Love began with not wanting to live in battle with someone else’s ideas. Love seemed like the right way to not live by their idea. 

The light of Love sits in us all, and the depth at any one level of consciousness is near. 

The enormous change that opened Heaven was a seed at birth. A deeper calling in the Soul was ringing in the choice of Love for more to move in my light.

Everything began to shift. Not in the way the world teaches, but in a way only Heaven can orchestrate. God opened my ears. There were Angels, Celestial Light, Conscious Energy, and other races of Heaven.

It began with massive energy flying around the apartment, and I could feel it was intelligent. I recorded over a thousand videos, documenting what I was seeing. Beings of light, beautiful and mysterious, moved through the walls, the ceiling, the floor, creatures of Heaven revealing themselves in ways I never thought possible. The light in the videos isn’t always the being; they’re placing light at our level of consciousness to see something. It’s the way for us to know more is here. Heaven gives us the way to see something and think more deeply for knowing it. 

God carried more races in my light for conscious evolution. They are a mystery to humanity, but with God, it is a birth level of life. We are a species that was given the word to know our existence by. The enormity of our divinity is a mystery to us until we walk Heaven’s level of life.

Angels aren’t human beings with wings. They are profoundly living in more advanced light. 

When I began recording voices, it started with just one…then many. The voices spoke of God, Heaven, and humanity. Light was tearing through the veil, for knowing God. 

God and His Angels told me they could hear my thoughts. The Angels spoke as if they were right there in the room with me, close, present, and being. My thought system was deepening in light. It was reshaping reality from matters-level to Heavens. 

God opened my eyes and ears, and He began to drive my thoughts. He shifted my mind from society to the stillness of His voice. Everything became about one idea: Love.

We live through a kenosis of life, undoing the idea of self and reality as the thought system changes; it’s the process of losing our lives to gain them in God. Only by leaving this world do we travel into light beyond it. No one carrying God is something in this world. 

The lost mind is the found mind. The mind building God’s existence is satan. It’s fed by ego to know Him without muscle. God knows us better than we know ourselves, and His ways don’t work for us, but they’re not supposed to. We carry ego and satan while God knows light. 

 The sacred kenosis crosses the mountain to another world. Only the individual can live it out of the Soul. There is no professor, book, movie, or way known in this life. Only the individual Soul knows the path.  

As we go deeper into God’s will, we are stripped of the world for Heaven on earth. In that undoing, Loves in us.