Living with God

Moses was raised in Egyptian culture, immersed in a world that worshipped many gods. Polytheism was his fundamental teaching as a child, and the idea of one living God was foreign to him. When God spoke to Moses at the burning bush, it marked a profound turning point in his journey toward God. In that divine encounter, Moses awakened to monotheism not through tradition or belief, but through direct experience. 

The Pharaoh Akhenaten, ruling in the 14th century BCE, emerged from a long lineage steeped in Egypt’s deeply rooted polytheistic traditions. Yet, within him stirred a different light, a single devotion that recognized the Sun, Aten, as the one true God. Though his reign was brief, Akhenaten shifted the spiritual axis of an entire civilization, guiding Egypt into a rare moment of monotheism. His vision, radical for its time, carried the seed of a deeper knowing, an echo of the eternal, however fleeting.

We don’t build muscle with God because we live by religious ideologies or family traditions. Living with God is His creation for every Soul to know Him is a walk that represents everything in life. And detaching from our idea of life shows it. The human narrative wants to be right and own everything it sees in its own knowing and not knowing, and loses faith in depth.

Walking outside acceptance isn’t an easy walk, but it’s a mandatory one for the individual to know faith and trust. The Abraham test is the crazy one that no one can idealize is God, but something deeper within screams its God. 

My journey is one every human being will one day walk. Learning to know God from nothing to something. 

I never knew God existed.  Whenever someone mentioned His name, I would quietly replace it in my mind, whispering “the universe.” In truth, I was as far from God as anyone could be. There was no concept of Him, no framework in my mind for His existence, no opening for Him to enter. And yet, He walked with me to teach and bless.

If we understand Abraham, having descendants as numerous as the stars, we know God lives, making any human being know Him not by the mind but by the depth already stirring in the Soul. 

His breaking through a thought system, not knowing Him, speaks volumes about the deeper, untold journey taking place between humanity and God. It tells every religion and every seeker that God doesn’t require belief or tradition to know us. He moves beyond them. Even Buddha’s story dives into knowing more about life with God, than any pope has lived.

Buddha never knew God existed, but traveled His roads and received light in Christ for enlightenment. No one in any religion has carried enlightenment. God moves to a bigger part of life-changing than individuals living in satan and ego. 

Almost 16 years ago, I found an organization monitoring me. They began destroying my life because I had worked with one of their most renowned artists. My life went from Beverly Hills to below poverty. I thought about how to handle it, and it was either create a world-class lawsuit and live at their level fighting back, or choose Love. Marianne Williamson was a teacher of Love, and I had known her well. 

The choice made was Love and not to attack back or defend myself. I didn’t want to live at their level of energy or carry hatred. 

We don’t always know what we’re doing and feel like we’re making good decisions, but life tends to carry more. I watched my life sink lower and lower, and I didn’t tell anyone that I had chosen Love and was being attacked by an organization. In NY I owned a gloss magazine , an advertising agency, and created, hosted, and produced radio shows both on FM and AM.

I had friends who were millionaires who could have helped. And my brother was working for Homeland Security. Going below poverty was never in my cards, and no one saw my life or what was happening. Friends and family couldn’t understand the decline. If I had told anyone what was happening, they would have picked up the fight for me and refused my choice of Love. 

My life had always been successful. Even though I didn’t defend myself or attack back, they continued to attack my life, and eventually, I lived below the poverty line. For those around me, it didn’t make sense. It seemed like something was very wrong. But in many ways, it was the opposite. What was on the outside was falling apart as something much deeper was shaping on the inside. I was losing my life to gain it in God without knowing He existed. 

I had moved around Los Angeles to keep a roof over my head and ended up in a storage apartment as home. Soon after moving into the apt in Sherman Oaks, energy started flying out of the ceiling, walls, and the floor. Then, a few months later, I began recording voices. I had lived for four years, having my life destroyed while only choosing Love. Many days, I would drive to the FBI, wanting to tell them about my life, but something deeper would call me to pause. 

Many times, I would sit on the side of the road contemplating what Love was and if this was right or wrong. I hadn’t lived spiritually and was not in the light of higher consciousness, God, or deep inner questioning. The choice of Love began with not wanting to live battling in someone else’s ideas. They chose to monitor, and it was theirs to live, not mine. I didn’t want to participate in their light of living. Love seemed like the right way to not live by their idea. 

The innocence of life sits in us all. We don’t really live in battle unless we try to be someone or something that is deeply rooted in ego. 

The enormous change by choosing Love moved the universe to reveal Heaven. A deeper calling in the Soul was ringing through the choice of Love for more to move in my light.

Everything began to shift. Not in the way the world teaches, but in a way only Heaven can orchestrate. God opened my ears. There were Angels, Celestial Light, Conscious Energy, and other races of Heaven.

It began with massive energy flying around the apartment, and I could feel it was intelligent. I recorded over a thousand videos, documenting what I was seeing. Beings of light, beautiful and mysterious, moved through the walls, the ceiling, the floor, creatures of Heaven revealing themselves in ways I never thought possible. The light in the video’s aren’t the beings; they’re placing light for us to see something,  it’s the way for us to know more is there. Heaven gives us the way to see something and think more deeply. 

When I began recording voices, it started with just one…then many. The voices spoke of God. They spoke of Heaven and humanity. God was tearing through the veil, so I could know Him. Literally, I didn’t live by any way to know God. 

God and His Angels told me they could hear my thoughts. The Angels spoke as if they were right there in the room with me, close, present, and alive. Then God opened everything and life changed. My thought system was moving from matters level to light. 

He began to drive my thoughts, with His light. He shifted my mind from society to the stillness of His voice. Everything became about one living idea: Him.

We undo the idea of self and reality as the thought system changes; it’s the process of losing our lives to gain them in God. Only by leaving this world do we travel. No one with God is carrying this world. They carry Heaven and His light. Only His will is alive. We walk through our shadows, rewiring light. A sacred kenosis that clears the way for living in Christ. 

As we go deeper into His will, we are stripped of the world’s ideas and our own. In that undoing, Heaven deepens within us.